Amy Winehouse, Michael Jackson, and now Whitney Houston. Its difficult enough being a young normal person trying to stay away from the wrong people, the partying, the drugs, etc…but there is something about Hollywood. if you are not a seriously strong person you WILL get sucked into the dark side of that crazy world. The short time i spent in what they jokingly call “LA LA Land” was an odd one…i remember being 20 years old going to these elite parties in the hills and seeing cocaine for the very first time in my life. these two beautiful supermodel looking girls and two men in suits were just sitting at a table chopping it up and snorting it in front of everyone as if they were merely puffing on a cigarette.  i went into panic mode and was out of there in 3 mins flat. it was bad enough growing up finding my parents already smoked heroin foils all over my house, i was not about to start hanging around the types of people i was trying so desperately to escape. this was one of my first “welcome to Hollywood” experiences, and it was overwhelming to say the least.

Everyone knows Drugs and Hollywood go hand in hand and sadly most of these celebrity deaths do not come as a shock to us. But one does wonder how all of this comes about. i have to be honest and say that when i found out Whitney was using drugs about 5 years ago i was in shock. as a kid i looked up to her, wanted to be her. she was America’s sweetheart. And then…. she met Bobby Brown. i know you were all thinking what i was thinking at the time,, really?! the “ain’t nobody humpin around” guy?? he seemed and still seems like the biggest idiot on planet earth. Whitney was a big girl and obviously no one shoved a crack pipe in her mouth and said, “smoke!” though we will never truly know,,(until Bobbi Christina comes out with a tell all)  i tend to think Bobby Brown was a bigger influence than most realize. Whitney made some seriously wrong choices, in men, and in life. and because of that the world lost one of its greatest voices, a mother lost a daughter, and a daughter lost a mother.

There is always that pivotal moment in life when you are faced with a decision that you know will change the complete outcome of your life all together. The moment you decide to end a long term relationship you know is going in the wrong direction,  the moment when you decide to take that job offer in London, the moment you decide to say “no thanks” when someone offers you an illegal substance you know you could potentially become dependent on. these moments and these decisions define us. ask yourself if you are happy with where you are in life. if you are not happy i guarantee that somewhere along the line you made some wrong decisions… and you know what they are. remember it is never too late to start making better choices in life.  think it through, say a little prayer, and go with your gut.

-”With each passing moment is another chance to turn it all around.” -Vanilla Sky

“Every time you don’t follow your inner guidance, you feel a loss of energy, loss of power, a sense of spiritual deadness.” -Shakti Gawain

“Every human being has, like Socrates, an attendant spirit; and wise are they who obey its signals. If it does not always tell us what to do, it always cautions us what not to do.” -Lydia M. Child